Or… indecisive, confused, scared, weak, emberrased, lost, ignorant, etc.
I just don’t know.
I didn’t choose to not believe in God. I just simply can’t wrap my head around the idea of blaming all your right-doings and wrong-doings on a “spirit.”
I used to hope that I would somehow start believing in “Jesus” and have faith because I thought life would be much easier.
My parents never pressured me into believing in “Jesus”. No one ever did.
……
I have encountered many demonic “extravaganzas” and zero “godly” acts.
I believe there is something out there.
Demons, yes.
In “Jesus”, maybe?
Where is God? Who is God? Why is he a God?
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