Or… indecisive, confused, scared, weak, emberrased, lost, ignorant, etc. 

I just don’t know.

I didn’t choose to not believe in God. I just simply can’t wrap my head around the idea of blaming all your right-doings and wrong-doings on a “spirit.”

I used to hope that I would somehow start believing in “Jesus” and have faith because I thought life would be much easier.  

My parents never pressured me into believing in “Jesus”. No one ever did. 


I have encountered many demonic “extravaganzas” and zero “godly” acts.

I believe there is something out there. 

Demons, yes. 

In “Jesus”, maybe? 

Where is God? Who is God? Why is he a God?